Honing a natural skill

This past year I have been going to school. I am learning the skills of a negotiator. To be a negotiator one must possess some unique abilities: such as relate to people when they are in a very stressful time in there lives. Possess a great quantity of patience and understanding. One can't jump to a conclusion about any person or situation. Must be able to pick up on little details, and seem almost psychic, because they are able to process a lot of little bits of information to give them a very clear idea of a possible threat, or false alarm. Must have the ability to listen, listen to what is said of course, but also to what was not said. Most of all you have to be trusted almost from go. There you have it, the what is needed to be a negotiator. Sounds kind of complicated I guess, but it really isn't. At least for me it hasn't been.

I came into the program with many of the skills already a part of my every day life. The classes I'm taking are honing a natural talent, or skill I never gave much thought to. I assumed everyone could see what I do. I think that is what the classes have taught me the most, my differences. I have a lot of fun with this stuff, it is just so fascinating. The psychology class are a bit wordy for me sometimes but the idea of having to be a good listener, and make sense of the chaos that is tormenting a person. Then spin it in such away that you are able to explain to the troubled soul the what and why of things, so that they might better understand. This is important for a couple of reasons. 1st: The troubled soul begins to trust you, because it seems you do indeed see the problem. 2nd: The troubled soul will start to depend on your interpretation of events that are unfolding, and look to you to guide them through it. I love the idea of maybe one day I can save a life, or give confidence to a person who is just afraid, of moving forward. I love the stuff i am being taught, I hope it is making me a better person. Parts of my schooling I am not allowed to discuss, even signed a piece of paper swearing to it, but it is nothing that big or scary, but all the same.
Oddly enough, I can talk about making the life or death call. This is the part of the schooling I have the most trouble with. I am very pro-life, so having to give the word to take a life, or to do it myself. ...I truly hate that part of it, but I do see the necessity for preparing for worst case scenarios, just don't like it. The fact I know i could give the go ahead if the need came, scares me a bit. I can be a very cold and focused person at times of great stress, but at the same time I can be as warm as a puppy who can't seem to stop wagging their tail. So I am going to school to hone a skill, that will help save lives. Who knows one of those lives I effect could be yours dear reader. :-D

I know this blog was a little different than my other stuff, but I figured I would let you see a little bit of who I am, and who I want to be. plus: a very dear friend of mine, said they would like to read a blog about what it is I do at school. I try to please, help, and other wise be there for my friends in anyway they may ask. So, I hope this was an enjoyable read. To the friend who asked, I tried! :-D

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